'The Suicide Handbook'

"Red means run son, numbers add up to nothin'"

This is the place where I can let go. This is the place where I can take it easy. My easy plateau.

So let it ride, let it roll, let it go, and go easy on yourself. Cause tomorrow's on it's way, and there's always new songs to sing.

And when I'm gone, all my words will be here...

If you want you can hit me up an e-mail here or chat to me:

dg_9315@hotmail(dot)com

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Sun Nov 29

Right now i hate myself, and I'm not good.

Hate. Right now I hate myself. I am so stupid and I fail at everything. I’m lacking self confidence and I can’t do anything right. I’m so tired of these arguments and yelling. I can’t take it. And i feel as if I have ruined someones day.

This afternoon I had enough and i broke down. I began to cry and for a moment I wanted to die. I had bad temptations. I hated myself. I feel as if i can never do anything right. Never good enough at anything. I wanted to run away. I was looking at a picture of myself happy taken a while ago and felt the tears in my eyes.
I felt/feel so alone. I feel so out of place. I don’t belong in this society, I don’t fit in and I don’t like it. I feel trapped.
I didn’t hurt myself though, because I know it would hurt the one person i love more than what it would me, and it is just foolish.
I’m not in a good state. I need to get away. And I miss my love more than anything already.

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Sat Nov 28